Are You Going to Let Him In

When he walks by my heart flutters

When we talk I can’t do anything but look into his eyes

I laugh at his stupid jokes and expressions

When I leave I think about the next time I’m going to see him

My heart tells me to make a move

But my mind and everything else inside me tells me not to

The thought comes into my mind,

“What if he doesn’t feel the same? Can you take that again?”

The possibility of rejection comes to mind and scares me worse than any horror movie can

My heart is like a little girl afraid under her blanket in a thunderstorm, too afraid to come out

How will I know I won’t be hurt again?

Is there such a thing as knowing that up front?

I can’t believe the attitude and sarcasm I prided myself in is not my personality but actually my wall to protect me.

Many people say you can’t go all your life with your heart closed off to love, its much easier said then done.

I’ve been hurt so bad I wouldn’t be able to handle being hurt again

It’s easy for people to say ”Are you going to let him in?”

When I think about that question the only thing I can say is “Am I ready to handle the possibility of getting hurt?”

The last couple years my wall has never been infiltrated by any guy so there was no need to worry.

It will not always stay that way, when I meet that guy that I just really want to be with am I going to let him in?