The Scariest Thing

Everyone is scared of something different

May it be the boogieman, drowning or the dark?

The scariest thing for me is opening up the now rusty walls of my heart.

I made my name known by being aggressive, not needing anyone, not feeling any emotion except anger

I am the girl guys come to talk to about their girl problems, hang out, play sports

I’m one of the guys; friend zone is where I always am.

After the last time I got my heart broken I promised myself I would never let it happen again for a guy who wasn’t worth it.

Securing my heart and feelings were at first by choice

Now it’s just a restriction

I have not let myself feel anything for any other person in such a long time that I come off as heartless

When did I shut off my feelings completely?

The thought of someone getting so close they make my walls break down scares me

My first defense is my bitchiness and sarcasm

Once all else fails I run.

I refuse to let myself be the first one to fall; I refuse to even acknowledge what I may feel

Acknowledging and trying to explain what I feel is the scariest thing for me.

I just can’t seem to let someone else see who I really am

The scariest thing for me is opening myself up again and setting myself up for the same devastating pain I once felt.

I made my name being the girl who doesn’t care what people think of her, or say about her

The girl who could take care of she and never gets hurt

The scariest thing for me?

Opening myself up once more and breaking the fragile heart I spent years putting back together

Just so in the end I’m left there alone trying to put myself back together and trying to forget the love I have in my heart… 




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