My Back Feels Funny

Hey bestie?

My back feels a little funny

What do you think it can be?

It started a little while ago

But now it’s a blistering pain that passes through my whole body.

Hey bestie?

Where are you?

Why aren’t you answering my texts or phone calls and then telling me months later you miss me and we don’t spend enough time together?

Hey bestie?

Why is your boyfriend so much more important to you than I am?

Was he there through all the mini meltdowns?

Was he the one right there beside you in those stores acting like an idiot with you?

Was he there holding your hand telling you “besties for life”?

Hey bestie?

When did you cut me out the loop?

When did the space between us grow so big, Niagara Falls keeps us apart?

Hey bestie?

Did you ever think that in 6 years I never judged you?

Did you think about all the things I’ve done for you?

Hey bestie?

Why did you hurt the one person who would always be there for you?

Why did you think you could be so cruel, hurtful and judgmental and I was just supposed to have a smile on my face?

What made you look at me so differently in such a short time?

Why can’t you just accept my mistakes and the fact that I’ve changed?

You don’t need to like the guys I want to date but at least respect my decisions, if I get hurt in the process then I have to pick myself up.

You could at least do the whole bestie thing, a carton of Hagan daaz and a bunch of chick flicks and let me cry it out.

I would always do it for you, why wouldn’t you be there for me?

Hey bestie?

Why did I trust you with my life for so long?

Hey Bestie?

My back feels a little funny

I think I know what it can be.

It must be from that knife you drove into it.