What I'm Not

I’m not here for your amusement

I’m not some Barbie doll you can play with and just throw somewhere when you’re tired of me

I’m not here just for your pleasure

I’m not some chick who can just go through life not feeling

I’m not a chick who trusts easily, it’s something you’ll probably never get from me

I’m not gonna sugar-coat things for you, I’m going to tell you like it is

But I’m not going to tell you what I feel

I’m not what you call an outgoing girl

I’m not a girl that leaves you hanging in the wind; I’m there no matter what, sadly even if you don’t deserve it

I’m not fake so I expect you to be real with me

Most of the time I’m not gonna be nice, so either you learn to deal with it and show me your gonna be there or get lost now

I’m not normal and I’m proud of it, means I have more fun anyways

I’m not like other chicks; I have my own mind and attitude, which no one can take from me

I’m not weak; I’ve been through things others would find unimaginable but some how I always come back with a vengeance

I’m not forgiving, above all else I will NEVER forgive you for hurting me, its rare I give a second chance, why waste my time?

I’m not judgmental so why does the rest of the world think they know who I really am?

Better yet why do they think they have the right to judge me?

I’m not spiteful but I’m sick of being the bigger person, if you wanna mess with me think twice about it, I will find a way to make you regret you ever met me

I’m not anyone’s second choice, it’s either all of me or none of me

I’m not high and mighty but I do above all else have respect for myself

I’m not an actress or singer, but my outlet is writing, it is with writing that I release my soul

I’m not a player but it doesn’t mean I don’t know how to play the game

I’m not the loudest one or the most obvious, it just means I have things up my sleeve

I’m not the wisest, I’ve made my own mistakes and my past has created the person standing before you.

I am not a person who regrets, things in my past may have not worked out in the way I hoped but I never regret, its just a reminder of where I’ve been, where I’m never going again and who I’m not anymore.