Everything I Meant to Say

I missed my chance of telling you everything I needed to get off my chest because I cared so much about what you thought.

I meant to tell you...

I don’t need you

I don’t know what I ever saw in you

You made my life hell for so long

You were my first love and heartbreak

You made me cold

I guess in a way you saved me the time I could be with my Prince Charming

I meant to tell you

I loved you more than anything else

You were the reason I smiled so much

Seeing you got me through my most miserable days

You were the one that hurt me the most

Yet you were the one I wanted to hold on to above all else

With everything that happened with you I meant to tell you something I would never say out loud to you

I meant to say thank you

Because of you I felt the what its like to love with all your heart

I felt the highest of highs and the lowest of lows

You made me realize how important I am and the fact that I don’t deserve to go through all the pain

You made me realize how I don’t want a guy to treat me

Made me realize I’m too good for all those games

With all that time it took for me to get over you, I went from being terrified of opening my heart to being ready to again, knowing not all guys are like you

I don’t know if I’ll ever have my chance to tell you face to face everything I meant to say

At least with these words on the paper I don’t have to carry them in my soul anymore